Through the Wilderness

Sunday, March 30, 2008

It's been a while, Lord

Dear Lord,

It's been a while since I last posted here. Guess you are aware of what's been plaguing me for a good half a year and more now. Yes, my legs! That's right.

My knees are trashed (and they have gotten worse since I fell and landed on both knees) ; I have a spur on my right heel (from July 2007) and it is causing me pain whenever I walk (despite having had 3 injections); my left ankle and foot is bruised and swollen (after I missed a step and tripped yesterday). I feel like a cripple and I do get depressed at times , especially when I cannot do the things that I used to be able to do. A simple chore like bathing the doggies is now a HUGE challenge. I can no longer kneel to pray and this is something I miss a lot. I tried doing that using a cushion but found that my knees would become swollen after that - so these days I no longer kneel. sigh! sigh!

Sometimes I get quite depressed. At other times, I look at the cross and tell myself that my suffering is nothing compared to our Lord's. I must admit that to do the latter is not easy. I pray for grace to grow old gracefully; to never lose faith especially when I encounter pain and suffering.

Be near me, Lord, and hold me close
let me feel your arms surround me
and in the warmth of your presence
help me to 'let things be'.

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